From Chaos to Composure

So I've been at my place of business all day long, "working" as hard as I am able to, all the while thinking that it is only a short four months away from one of the biggest days of my life. Since January, I've met with tons of vendors, discussed a million options of dinner entrees, decor, bridesmaid dress possibilities, liquor lists, tcochke items, the list goes on. It makes me wonder if anything can come easily when you are planning an event such as this. The answer is no, but one thing that helps me get through the day, even when I feel like the world's weight is on my shoulders, is knowing that it is not just this one big event that matters. In fact the wedding reception is what matters least. Lately I've been straying from daydreams about the ceremony/reception part of my upcoming marriage, and have been solely dreaming of the days I will be able to go home, and there will be Russell. That is what makes all this hoity toity, this and that, nit picking process of a wedding day worthwhile. After spending most of my day browsing wedding blogs and reading other girls freak out about all the stupid little things a wedding can involve, and worrying about whether or not the white linen backdrops at the reception hall will take away from my ivory dress and make it look "dirty" (god, it better not!), and BLAH BLAH BLAH, I was sitting here thinking, all this, just to make it home to Russell. And you know what? It is totally worth it!